A night of laughs and great music started at the park in Stuart. Chip, my buddy (who brought me a very select bottle of whiskey to celebrate my release from jail) came and brought me to a drum circle. Really. They do it every sunday and have been for 10 years. Where have I been? I borrowed a drum from a hippie named Denise and jammed a little while, but mostly listened. It was surreal and I wish I would have known about it for longer, I have gone every Sunday. My kind of people. Real mellow and positive. Love and peace and all that shit.
Jamie, Chip's Brandi, showed up and it was good to see her. Yes they are still together, congrats...
We ventured off to Crawdaddies were I had some of the best seared tuna ever. But I sent it back because it wasn't rare enough. (what an asshole right, I mean how do you get raw fish more rare than raw) But they brought it back uncooked which made it very good. God I love raw fish...
The Mojo Band was there and they were a little more jam band-esk, if you will, will long guitar solos and they had a new member they were trying out, and he was awesome. I will say that those guys are great whether your looking to get out and dance, or pay attention to the vibration of the scales in the guitar solos.
Also tonight I did a little personal critisism. An honest dive into my responsibilities as a father, provider, human, and friend. I have a weakness for the blindfold of being in love. It has taken my attention off of whats important and consumed me for as long as I remember. I found magic in one moment and tried to stay inside that moment for the past 4 years like a drug addict chasing a dragon. I have no regrets, for I have experienced passion at its finest and some bonds that most of you will never understand, but in the mean time I have lost focus on my future. My children have suffered, my family and the one I thought it was all for. I confess that I saw it all happening as it was happening and still chased that dragon without pause to the obvious consequences and gave notice only to the moment. I traded family, friends, and any success I was able to achieve for one dose of her poison.
I will not do it any longer. I will go to my kids and give them a future. Be there for my family and those who come along for the ride are welcome, those who can't thats ok too.
I realized tonight why so many people are attracted to my energy and why so many are repelled by it. God give me the determination to stick with my current understanding and not focus on the past...
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