Several characteristics of the diagnoses would actually fit me. "Manipulative and Conning" "Need for Stimulation" "Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility" But after some personal research I found myself in conflict with some of the priority characteristics. Most importantly, an "Incapacity for Love" thing was troubling to me. Anyone who has any experience with me at all would have no convection less than an unprecedented capacity for love.
A sociopath sees his lovers as instruments and opportunities to manipulate and exploit, before ultimately turning them into his victims. I can imagine a number of my exgirlfriends would agree with the previous statement how ever I see it much differently. But even the diagnoses says I would see it all differently. Hmm... But I guess it would be an outside diagnoses and involving a reaction to my actions in life to be determined by an outside person other than me, so my understanding of my own conflicts is irrelevant. But for the record I disagree.
"A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at my supposed core. I do not see others around me as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, I have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and I let nothing stand in my way." Does this sound like something I could say? Believably? God maybe I could. But victims? No for sure not me...
"Shallow Emotions" is something I am also supposed to have a problem with. I mean come on, shallow emotions? My emotions are abyss-like I would venture to say and sometimes I am a little embarrassed about how emotional I can be.
I don't feel I am paranoid and I am sure there is no goal to enslave any of my victims. Although the thought does slightly turn me on but that's something totally different than sociopathy. Ropes and well, another time...
The profile of a sociopath also says that I am "Incapable of real human attachment to another." Incapable? Umm anyone ever heard the name Brandi?
Now I will concede on at least one simularity I have with the charateristics of a sociopath. A sociopath may state readily that their goal is to rule the world. I will openly say hidden it the caverns of my ulterior motives and underlying disinformation I may minutely harbor this as a deranged unphathomable highly unattainable goal. Aside from my opinian of achieving the goal itself, I do say it openly that I want to rule the world...
A sociopath is mainly identified by there being something very wrong with a person's conscious. They either 1) have a conscious with "holes" in it, 2)they don't seem to have one at all or 3) they are able to completely neutralize their sense of conscious into a perspective that they aren't doing anything wrong. One thing is for sure: Sociopaths only care about themselves and only see themselves as being "real" or truely human. Everybody and everything outside of themselves are twisted in their mind into mere objects to be used to achieve personal fulfillment.
A sociopath often believes that they are doing nothing wrong or doing something greatly good, due to their egocentricity and grandiose sense of self-worth. They will cold-bloodedly take what they want and do as they please at any expense of anyone in their lives; predators who satisfy their lust for power and control through superficial charm, manipulation, intimidation, and violence.
There seems to be a difference between the made sociopath (one who's lived a life with a childhood that pushed them into the mind state of a sociopath) and the "true" sociopath (one who is born a sociopath.)
Common Sociopath: simple lack of conscious.
Alienated Sociopath: an inability to love or recieve love.
Aggressive Sociopath: a consistent saddistic streak.
Dyssocial Sociopath: an ability to abide by GANG rules, as long as these rules are the WRING rules.
So am I a sociopath? Yes, No, Maybe so.
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